does that include sexuality or
I’m just trying to deal with the fact that this implies that Dean and Cas have gotten into arguments over Dean trying to label him…
#honestly it’s the casual ‘we’ that gets me #it’s not ‘you’d gotten over’ it’s we #like there were nights when they’d sit up together talking about it #crossed legged on a mattress passing a bottle back and forth #dean getting angry and saying fuck this fuck you and getting up #and castiel pulling him back to bed laying on top of him like a drunk horny cat #and dean going soft and quiet under him saying #be whatever you want cas i don’t give a fuck #we we we we we we #you could put a hundred words in his mouth in this scene #that would not speak so many volumes as one small ‘we’ (via robotmango)
I never realized how hurt Cas looks when Dean says that. Fuck.
and look at that breath he takes and how he sighs can we just
Rae Carson, The Bitter Kingdom
They’re taking a break from trial number three when Charlie knocks on their door, clutching a carrier bag like it holds the secrets to the universe.
"Charlie?" Dean says, opening the door.
"You have to read this," she says, barrelling past him. We really need a better security system, Dean…
you look so sad when you think he can’t see you
Dream yourself far away
Start spreading your wings now
Let your mind disobey
Capture the wind
Dream yourself far away
Embrace the unknown now
Free yourself from all the chains
Capture the wind
(i lost everything—for nothing)
i lost nothing
#look dean#I’m hunting#I’m useful#I can do what you do Dean#I can be of help to you#Dean#please let me stay with you#please don’t shut me out#please don’t discard me like an used up tool with a broken handle#dean please#please love me#please#I thought maybe… (via yellow-turtle)
And you have to wonder, don’t you? How much of Cas’ decision to take Theo’s grace was because he wanted to be useful again- or maybe because he knew that he couldn’t be with Dean, human or angel, and the only thing that he could do was stay away the way that Dean asked, was to become the hardened warrior that he had put aside in Dean’s gentling presence. Dean doesn’t accept him as a human, not the way that Cas sees it, and so he steals another angel’s grace and distances himself again, because the worst pain of humanity isn’t the physical, it’s the roaring in his ears when Dean tells him to go.
While I don’t think this was his only motivation, I am pretty convinced that Dean’s renewed rejection ultimately contributed to Cas stealing another angel’s grace - which, by the implication of it, appears to be some kind of taboo. Lacking background knowledge, Cas apparently believed that Dean rejected the human he’d become. That a humble, somewhat dorky sales associate was not someone he would ever want to associate with. That Dean’s interest in him was merely in the what, not in the who. And it’s so sad because you could see so clearly that Dean loved human!Cas to pieces. He was so proud, so happy. I think this is emphasised one last time when he asks Cas whether he’s really okay with being an angel again. Because apparently, deep down, Dean is not. He wanted to be with human!Cas and experience all the human goodness with him, like having beers together, or watching movies, or just being adorably dorky. And then Cas calls him and he realises it’s already over and he didn’t even get to cherish it. Poor Dean, poor Cas.
However, I think Cas’ eventual choice also ties in with other parts of his personality. He tried to stay out of the fray, but he couldn’t, because that’s not who he is - human or not. When Cas showed up at the crime scene, I felt his decision was already made.
As dustydreamsanddirtyscars pointed out, Malachi is both a call-back to season 6!Cas as well as a veritable possibility who Cas might eventually become if he continues rejecting his “human” side, the part of him that is kind and compassionate, that craves love and apprecation, that wants to be safe and wanted and happy. Castiel rejected that part for the time being because he feels it only keeps him from doing what must be done, but as said here, I am also certain that this choice was triggered and ultimately reinforced by Dean’s attitude.
Ah, Lady, you took several words right out of my mouth.
Cas cannibalizing another angel is both delicious drama (even if I weren’t already thrilled by having other Cas back in some form) and it’s just another way Dean’s also taboo choices this season have negatively informed his family. Human!Cas was as much a casualty as Kevin. (And that’s interesting meta for another day—how Kevin and Cas’ arcs paralleled each other this season).
I also thought that Dean was worried for Cas and maybe beginning to realize how much he’d failed him as a human when he asked if he was okay with his newly purloined grace. I hope this means that Dean truly begins analyzing and facing his feelings for Cas in the upcoming season. I hope this means that the time they spend together working against Gadreel/Metatron while trying to save Sam is spent communicating honestly—that he heeds the lessons of 5x03’s END!verse in approaching this new END!verse.
it’s a bit funny that for what probably is dean/cas’ most tragic season overall (WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED TO HEAR IT ;A;), s6 dean/cas makes me soooo giddy too because wow if that isn’t the season they ascended from rebellious boyfriends to totally married
they are just so snippy with each…
#’what do you mean where did i look’ #’everywhere i looked fucking everywhere’ #’i looked inside of people’s closets and at the bottom of the marianas trench’ #’i looked inside of every macy’s simultaneously and i checked in every cornfield and cow pasture’ #’i looked at buenos aires and the russian steppe dean what the fuck do you mean where did i look’ #’is this about the time i said i couldn’t find your car keys’ #’because as you’ll remember dean my exact phrase was i WON’T find your car keys’ (via robotmango)
DECK THE HALLS WITH SALT AND HUNTERS
TIS THE SEASON TO WEAR JUMPERS
DON WE NOW OUR PLAID AND SHOTGUN
IMPALALA LALALA LA LA LA
JOIN ME NOW AND WE’LL HAVE MORE FUN
SEE THE BLAZING SALTED GRAVE
THE FAMILY BUSINESS IS TO SAVE
SEXY CARS AND FALLEN ANGELS
IMPALALA LALALA LALALA
WHAT THE FUCK NOTHING RHYMES WITH ANGEL